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The cost of freedom ( Read more... )

Its like I'm free
But my very mind is like a prison.
Holding me to structure and rules.
Preventing me from flying like a bird.

Sick at heart;
I want to run away.
Run away
Hide from all the pain;
And I look around at the empty room;
At the lack of people;
And I think I can't run away more then I already have.
There's no more distance I could put,
Between me and a twisted past,
Run away
Run away
If I turned off my phone for a day;
Would it be like I've run away?

Do you know what it is like to have loved ( Read more... )

why I hate depending on people?
or why I hate needing people,
or lets humour my therapist and write this
though I doubt I'll write anything worth writing.

dependency/need.
either emotional dependency,
or dependency for financial/physical reasons.
or dependency on even drugs (flixonase) or a process (therapy).
don't like depending on external things.
and ( Read more... )

I think I've written about coffee as an addictive drug before.

Today I'm considering a simple filter coffee from Starbucks, I've missed breakfast coffee, down to issues with living situation. And if I pay attention to what everything is telling me, I have no money to be buying what I've always brought or what I want, but damn I need my caffeine ( Read more... )

Title: Radio Times ( Read more... )

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It seems I cannot describe my emotions, without help of random sci/fy fantasy movie/tv scenes ( Read more... )

I suppose this is stupid ( Read more... )